Good News!!

So it's about time for some good news around here, huh?

I'm off the Dexamethasone!!
When we first started this journey last January my DHEAS level was slightly elevated, but in the still "normal" range. My baseline was 258. My doctor believes women have a better chance of getting pregnant if their DHEAS is under or near 200. After 8 months of failed cycles, my DHEAS levels were tested again and it had dropped to 229- without any medication. Granted, at that point I had lost about 15 pounds so the weight loss got the credit for the big dip. My doctor still wasn't happy 4 months later with no baby on board so we started the Dexamethasone to bring my levels down even further in hopes that that was the missing piece of our infertility struggle. After 6 weeks on the meds, I'm testing at 132!!!! I'm officially off the meds as of late last week and I'm more than excited about that! My numbers may slowly begin creeping back up over time but I'm happy to be off that dreadful pill for now!

And wait- it gets better!

WE HAVE A PLAN!

For the first time since this all began I feel at peace. We have a final idea of where the next few months will take us. We've decided to continue with the IUI and injections for the next 3 cycles. In the meantime, we're signed up to start the state required 11 week adoption class {starting next week}and get a home study!! This is a huge step for us! We're officially setting the wheel in motion for adoption while we wait in hopes of a biological miracle.

I gotta be honest y'all...I've gotten the best sleep this week!
My mind isn't running in circles anymore with questions and hopes and fears.
I'm excited and hopeful just knowing that there's another option that we both agree on.
A solid plan puts my mind to rest.

This whole process has been out of my control and for the first time in 14 months, I feel like I have control over something. There's an official time line.

I think control is the hardest part of this whole dang thing.
At least for this self proclaimed perfectionist control freak.
My momma just said, "You're not drivin' this car honey- you're not in control"
She's sure got that right.
Granted, I know in my heart that God's got this.
It's just hard to let go and let God.
I choose to believe that God knows how much we can handle.
He knows that we need a sense of security right now.
He knows that we needed a solid plan- a direction- a sense of control.
All the while- he's driving this car.